Saturday, July 30, 2005

Big news

Our offer on this house was accepted. Provided the house passes inspection and it likely will, we will close at the end of august.

Click on the link below for more details on this listing:
http://www.windermere.com/lid6038559
Klahanie Area Home in Issaquah

Address: 4227 239th Pl SE
City: Issaquah
State: WA
Zip: 98029

Google map location

Thursday, July 28, 2005

your sorry kid asses

I remember seeing you guys as kids do stuff that blew me away. It made me choke up to see you boys play soccer as well as you did. Or to see Nicole perform on stage. I had pride by association, but that takes away from your accomplishment. Really, I was flat-out impressed. It was recalling those things that helped me have kids. I remember certain instances with a lot of clarity. Now when I see my own kids do stuff, I get choked up.

I've learned that fear in our family produces contempt. We don't yell so much but we do get mad, then we just get amazingly sarcastic and contemptable. Sometimes that's funny and all, but sometimes it is our escape mechanism. Look at the title of this post and you'll see what I mean.

I'm so happy to have partaken in those experiences but I've never shared them. Why? Because I don't really know how. But I'm learning. So thanks for that, straight up.

The 39 Planation Street fixuh uppah is another great example of that. Way to go Mike.

It's not the money

New nickname: Big Brother - how'd I not think of that in the first place on a blog called Sibling Rivalry?

Aside: I've started a new post because long comments are easy to lose and it 'pings' me when a new post is there.

The thing I've realized is that the quibbling about the house is not about the money. Yes, you have to be prudent or at least not imprudent. But mostly I want to know that we are buying something that is good for us. Someplace that will help us create a nurturing environment for ourselves and our kids. Someplace that will provide a vehicle for the many talents/skills that make getting up in the morning worth it, from decorating to cooking to hosting family and friends, etc. If that's what you are getting when you pay $20,000 more dollars than you'd hoped, it is a lot more palatable.

Saturday, July 23, 2005

Has this blog become too much about me

When I read my entries e.g. Sibling Rivalry: Considering Leaving Microsoft, I get the sense that I'm the only one reading this stuff. That's okay. However, I don't need a blog for that. I can (and do) write in my own journal.

I thought this would be a private (at least semi-private) place for us to communicate about big ideas. I like talking to you all and I don't get the chance very often. The time zone and the timing can be tough. And, it avoids the problem that I live 3,000 miles a way.

But if it isn't going to prompt discussion and input, then let me know.

Friday, July 22, 2005

Considering Leaving Microsoft

If heart surgery and the Chuck-snafu hadn't come up, I probably would be a little further along in this question. I have been relatively unhappy at Microsoft for about 3 years. Possibly longer.

When Amy asked me the last time I was really happy, I had to think a long time about it. My answer was before, during, and after our France trip. Prior to that, I couldn't say - probably the last Otis trip.

My point, and I do have one, is that my lack of happiness at work has had a considerable effect on me. I feel a bit of a failure at Microsoft too. I think quiting or getting another job would represent some sort of failure. I don't know why that bugs me so much.

Where does whining end and good sense begin? I just don't like being grumpy all the time at home and generally unhappy at work.

Saturday, July 16, 2005

Redirect on the House discussion

I've been doing a lot of thinking about the house search lately. I realize that one of the main reasons for me that this is a big deal is that the house represents some kind of symbol for the journey through life.

All of this is subjective thinking but nevertheless...

Each house that we have rented has represented a step in journey. The direction of those steps has felt correct, that we were headed towards a collective vision, even if it was not well articulated or spoken. Of course, sometimes it was all that. It was overt, explicit and mutually accpepted.

That direction has become muddled now. I'm not saying that you must take discreet and perfect steps toward a goal. I'm saying that you head off on a path that vaguely has you traveling, together, in a direction that you both enjoy.

It's easier to get two people to agree on something than it is to get four people to agree, generally speaking. I know that 'the townhouse' is not part of that overall direction. Hopefully it isn't too long a layover in a bad airport, if I can mix metaphors.

I think the big fear for me is to get locked into something, by way of financial leverage, that is not where we want to go. Later, there would be a continued need to service something that you know is not the the right thing. That would be a big burden for me. Maybe not for others but for me, it would be big.